people judging that i'm STUPIDER and more GULLIBLE than i really am! WHAT A SURPRISE.

alright.. when i was showering just now i thought of a conversation i had with amanda's mom when i called her last week i think, she said to me, "i don't know if mexico is safe.. you heard about your dad, right?" then i said, "yeah i know. he's dead." then she said, "well your dad is dead.. i don't see why you wanna go there.." and i said, "i wanna see where i was born." then she said, "oh." she said that all to me as if she was talking to my mom, thinking she'd scare me because she's assuming i'm gullible and easily scared like my mom. there is a DIFFERENT PRESIDENT in mexico from when my dad was killed. i'm assuming it's 100% safer. afterall, i DO remember seeing facebook pictures of crystal (back when she didn't think she was too good to be my facebook friend) and brent in mexico.. i highly doubt they'd take a trip there if it was unsafe. I'M NOT MY MOM. I WON'T BELIEVE EVERYTHING YOU SAY JUST TO SCARE ME WHEN YOU DON'T EVEN FUCKIN KNOW WHAT YOU'RE TALKING ABOUT. there's OBVIOUSLY NEW government there. THEY HAVE A WOMAN PRESIDENT WHO NOW HAS ALL MEXICAN CITIZENS ON UNIVERSAL HEALTHCARE BECAUSE THEY DON'T WANNA FUCK THEIR CITIZENS OVER FOR WANTING TO ACTUALLY LIVE HEALTHY LIKE THE GOOD OL' UNITED STATES FUCKIN THE CITIZENS OVER WITH THEIR MEDICAL BILLS! BET MY MOM DIDN'T KNOW THAT! BUT YOU PEOPLE SEEM TO THINK YOU KNOW EVERYTHING AND I'M EXACTLY LIKE MY BUM MOM. you're just gonna piss me off saying i'm like her when she hasn't been through HALF the shit i have because she's a scared bum and you and the rest of the family members scared her because you're overprotective and ultimately- uncaring. GUESS WHAT DICKS? I HAVE TWO SETS OF DNA- MY MOM'S AND MY DAD'S AND I THINK MY DAD'S IS TAKING OVER FOR MY DECISION MAKING BECAUSE I'M AWARE I DON'T HAVE ANYTHING TO LOSE ANYMORE AND THOSE PEOPLE ARE THE MOST DANGEROUS. if you people were to take away my decision-making for some reason (i actually KNOW i'm 10x more intelligent than my mom), i'll probably do something you all will regret. i think i was in tears one day when talking to my therapist about how i didn't wanna end up like my mom and my therapist tried to reassure me by saying, "you've worked jobs before in your life. your mom doesn't work." that made me feel a little better but everyone else refuses to acknowledge my differences to my mom. BET MY MOM NEVER ATTENDED THREE DIFFERENT COLLEGES. NOTHING i do will make me appear more able or knowledgable to anyone. people refuse to acknowledge how i already attended courage kenny for at least 3 or 4 years. i have proof of it on facebook. go fuckin gaslight someone who ACTUALLY CARES because i don't..